And so I go waltzing Matilda.

"I loved you for a long long time,
I know this love is real.
It doesn't matter how it all went wrong,
that don't change the way I feel.
And I can't believe that time's
gonna heal this wound I'm speaking of.
There ain't no cure,
there ain't no cure,
there ain't no cure for love.

I'm aching for you baby,
I can't pretend I'm not.
I need to see you naked
in your body and your thought.
I've got you like a habit
and I'll never get enough.
There ain't no cure,

there ain't no cure,

there ain't no cure for love.

I see you in the subway

and I see you on the bus.

I see you lying down with me,

I see you waking up.

I see your hand, I see your hair,

your bracelets and your brush.

And I call to you, I call to you,

but I don't call soft enough.

There ain't no cure,

there ain't no cure,

there ain't no cure for love.

I walked into this empty church,

I had no place else to go,

when the sweetest voice I ever heard

whispered to my soul:
I don't need to be forgiven
for loving you so much.
It's written in the scriptures,
it's written there in blood.
I even heard the angels
declare it from above.
There ain't no cure,

there ain't no cure,

there ain't no cure for love."

-Leonard Cohen

and then there was Lincoln...

There was me sitting underneath bright fluorescent lights. My mother asked me: "Stephen, are you going to bed?"
I replied, "No."
And she said, "Okay. Well good night."

Austin in 6,000 words or less

san diego (and a series of failures)

Today I made my peace with the city of San Diego and said my goodbyes. I kayaked along the coastline and met with creatures that exist in a different world. Fish, sea lions and dolphins. Kelp of extraordinary length. There is mystery and majesty both frightful and awe-inspiring still alive in the water.

But I returned to land.

I will take three things away from this place.

1. sailing

2. on land, sitting in the grass, I saw two young men sitting about ten feet apart from each other with their legs open wide. They were lobbing a tennis ball back and forth in the air attempting to hit one another in the testicles and laughing about it.

3. A group of three girls, approximately 15 years of age, were standing behind a car in the parking lot. Two of the girls were holding up a towel as their friend changed between the towel and the car's trunk. Her clothing was momentarily removed and the towel slipped. A part of her body was exposed. At the same time a sports car with tinted windows was driving by. The car stopped, the window rolled down. A man no younger than 25 made a sly sexual comment to the young girls, then rolled his window up as the car departed. The girls were disgusted and laughed, "Gross! He just said something so gross. Does he even know how old we are?"

San Diego, like much of this world, is like a beautiful hollow crystal. So wonderful to touch and hold but there is nothing on the inside.

That's all that I'm taking away from this place.

Rush Limbaugh should be beaten with an aluminium baseball bat wrapped in a condom.

"Now I'm out of prison, I got me a friend at last,
he don't steal or cheat or drink or lie.
His name's codeine, he's the nicest thing I've seen.
Together we're gonna wait around and die."


I feel like sailing into oblivion across an ocean of pills.
I feel a true hatred for everyone, and upon its arrival I realized that I should not be allowed among the living.