You know what I miss?

That unclear blue-white-gray color, hazy and tense, that smogs the crystal air's surface during dusk in a wintry time. It floats above the snow on the ground, a dull electric gossamer perimeter for a sky.

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Is a joke still a joke if nobody understands it?

one side of a two-sided story

I can't be positive but I think I was repeatedly cock-blocked tonight by my female coworker who is/was attracted to me.

There is nothing worse than being attracted to the bartender. She had sleeve tattoos, chin-length black hair and she was gorgeous. Hitting on the bartender is the impossible move. So I simply sank admirably into her beauty. I didn't want to take my eyes off her.

An older man who was clearly clutching and tapping on his dick as he sat next to me, which I pointed out to my friend, told me he didn't care for being made fun of and "... unless you wanna taste the back of my elbow..." I assured him I didn't, and was only pointing out his rather lurid gesture.
I guess he thought I'd be intimidated. He just changed seats.

Anyway.
This is the best sentence, among many great ones, that I overheard tonight: "Why fight when you can eat ass and pussy all day?"

One other thing...

In Portland, I found the way to happiness.

Literally.

"Sometimes I live in the country,
sometimes I live in the town.
Sometimes I have a great notion
I'm gonna jump in the river and drown.

Irene, goodnight.
Irene, goodnight.
Goodnight, Irene.
Goodnight, Irene.
I'll see you in my dreams."

here's what i would like to do...

drink until i sink into the ocean at midnight.

joseph campbell.

He died eight months after i was born.

but i think he was me.

when I googled "Is suicide a sin"

"Since you did not get your salvation by what you did, you can not lose it by what you do."